Friday, April 29, 2005

ACADEMICALLY CHALLENGED

I got up super early this morning to study for a math test that I had at 10. The test was a lot easier than I thought it would be. I actually feel pretty good about it. (*crosses her fingers* I would hate to jinx myself.)

The test was only 7 problems but it took forever. I got 6 of them done and was worried that I would get the last one wrong because we ran out of time but no one else had finished either. So because I am such a lucky bitch our teacher is giving us 15 minutes to finish up on monday.

The good news to this is that I can go and look at my notes to make sure that I solved one of the problems right (the only one that I was skeptical about). I am praying/hoping that I make a really good grade on this test. I have to make an A to keep an A. Doesn't that suck? Meh. I still have the weekend to look over things. YES! Jesus loves me. *tear*

Thursday, April 28, 2005

SOMEWHAT PRODUCTIVE

Photobucket is really starting to annoy me. I have posted some of the pics that I haven't posted in a while. When I get the other ones from this weekend up and photobucket decides to work I will have that picture post up like I promised.

As for right now you can check out my photobucket for some pics that you most likely haven't seen. If you don't know the password then hit me up somehow.

The albums consist of "The Essence of Life" which is all of the music pics that I put up from shows. I have a couple of pics from Gabe's band last week and then 034968 from the Straylight Run/Minus The Bear show on Sunday. (I am not looking forward to posting those with the way that Photobucket has been treating me.)

Then there is "Out of the Norm" and that is for all of my out of town trips. Right now all that has are the pics from when I went and visited Jennie and Paul in H-Town. It seems like all we did was sleep but trust me we did more. I plan on putting the pics from Marble Falls in there and the pics from West Lake in Austin.

There is a Random folder as usual. Then there is a "San Marvelous" & "San Marvelous Hall" folder. The first one is for all of my friends here as well as all of the parties and stuff. The hall folder are the fellow RAs. *grins* Enjoy!

So the when I have the picture post up then that means I have all of the other pics up. So yeah. Peace.

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

LIKE A ROBOT

I said that my next post was going to be a picture post but I thought it would be important to bitch right now.

My hall director just sent me an email and I won the treasurer position for RA council next year. The good news is that I will be working with a really good set of officers. The bad news is that I didn't ask for this position. I was asked if it was okay to be nominated but I honestly didn't believe that I would get it.

My hall director thought that it would be a good idea to nominate me for this position only because I'm good at math. I almost laughed at her. Have you ever heard of a calculator? Anyone can be a treasurer. All you have to do is add/subtract.

Nick told me the other day that I didn't want to be an officer because I would have to attend two meetings a week rather than one. *sighs* You think I'm busy this semester, wait till next. I think it'll be fun. Seventeen hours on top of two jobs and an officer position with the RA council not to mention all of the hours that I am going to need to spend at the pool. So help me god if you're out there.

On another good note, I have decided to quit ACLU. The idea of having a chapter on campus is cool but we don't do anything productive and Louis kinda creeps me out sometimes. So I will resign as Historian at the next meeting or just email him.

*raises her glass* Let's make a toast to the idea of being super busy next year! *chugs her water*

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

FOREVER YOUNG

I fully understand that I haven't updated in quite a while but that's my bad. I am one busy person these days and with finals and check-out around the corner I only expect it to get worse.

I plan on making my next post a picture post since I haven't done one in a while. Of course it will be pics from sunday. It was quite awesome and for those of you who missed out...I'm sorry.

Long story short, I still think that John Nolan is beautiful and Kenny is a cool guy. I am still recovering from that exhausting day as of right now. Though I was sore and I am still tired as hell, it was well worth it. I will go into more detail when fucking photobucket starts working better and I make the post.

Just to give you fair warning though be expecting that picutre post around saturday. I have a test on Friday and I have to get a lot of hours in at my other job because my last day is monday. So in between all of that the post won't happen till this weekend. I'm sure of it.

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

DEAR SMOKERS,

Happy 4/20.

Dear Non-smokers,

Happy almost earth day.

Love,
Liz

Monday, April 18, 2005

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY

Today after my math class I ran into Josh. I noticed that he was eating a blow pop and it reminded me of this conversation I had with Gabe last week. I told him that I was going to start giving people a blow pop everytime I am an asshole to them.

I think it's a swell idea. I am going to end up poor from spending money on blow pops all the freaking time. If this was last semester though it would have been much worse. I have made my improvements. *smiles*

Anyway, Josh gave me a blow pop. I don't think it's the fact that he gave me one but it was how he did it. He's simply a hilarious guy.

Alright I have to get this paper completed. I only have like an hour and half or so. Peace!

Sunday, April 17, 2005

UH...YEAH...I HAVE TO BE THE LAMEST TITLE TO EXIST

I have somehow managed to piss off two people today. *shrugs* Well, one of them was kinda lame but still shit happens.

Today is the worst day ever. Not really but it's going to be quite long. I have been here organizing this damned 20-pager I have due tomorrow at one for the past two hours or so. Yet there is still so much to be done too.

It's so effin boring working the desk but at least I have time to do homework. Have I mentioned that this paper sucks? Meh. Enough complaining, it'll get done.

I saw my parents yesterday. My mom told me that I have lost inches and that I'm looking good. I always believe her above anyone else but only because she doesn't see me as often. I need to measure myself more often rather than weigh myself. Afterall kelly and I have been busting our butts in the weight room and doing cardio in addition to all of the swimming I still do.

Enough about that though. My health is almost at tip-top shape just as it was over the summer when I was doing -really- good for myself. When I make it there I will most likely be happier with myself and quit complaing all the time. (That statement was meant for kelly---my apologies, love, I know it bothers you.)

I am looking forward to next weekend. I am going to marble falls and the straylight concert on sunday. Hopefully I can have some hang out time with Josh next weekend too. Things just didn't workout for us this weekend but we will get together at some point. So that is something else to look forward to.

Things are a little better I guess. The situations that I am in are still the same for the most part but I am handling it and looking at it in a different way. Also if things go well with my uncle my mom might be coming home sooner than we all thought. *crosses her fingers* Just pray.

Thursday, April 14, 2005

OH DEAR

I just got through figuring out my schedule for the summer. I will get be able to get my last government out of the way, only one of my history courses, one spanish course, and one literature class.

I am going to have to do my other spanish and history here in the spring of 2006. As for the literature, I'm signed up for one in the fall and hopefully that will be the end of those. I need to see my advisor again. I should pay attention to that hoe more often.

Just to let you know...Victoria College sucks. I have to take a class during the mini session, one for summer I (Spanish is a 4 hour course) and two classes for summer II. Eep! My summer is going to suck. The only thing for sure is that I will remain busy as hell.

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

IT'S VERY IMPORTANT THAT YOU KNOW THIS

Laura rocks my world like whoa!

She just brought quite the smile to my face and made my day. I love you, Laura.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

MORE TEARS

I hate it when my mom tells me that I have my dad's character; I know that she's right but I don't want to believe it. I hate that my mom's in San Antonio but I know it's for the best. I hate that my mom calls us selfish and she's right. I hate that I don't have more money to give. I hate that I have no control over anything that's happening. I hate crying but I have been doing it so much.

Though I hate all of this, everything happens for a reason. Yes, my family may be a wreck right now but we are all guilty of thinking of ourselves. She needs to be away from us for a while. It's not only the best for my uncle but it's the best for my family. Her being away should make us realize that she needs to be appreciated more when she is home.

I have only been guilty of the same by calling her and antagonizing her with questions like, "how am I supposed to pay this bill, mom?" Instead of asking her things like, "How are you? Do you need anything? How are you sleeping? Is your back adjusting well with your new sleeping arrangements? Are you doing some kind of activity for yourself, like walking around for alone/workout time? Are your sugars okay? Are you eating enough?" I am -such- a BITCH. So of course this upsets me more. I hate myself for not caring more.

This won't change the situation at home over the summer. There will still be the bickering and yelling but I can hopefully help the situation. I need to remember that my uncle needs her more than we do. Yes, we need her but not as much. Above all I need to quit being selfish. My mom was right. Mother knows best.

LATELY...

my life has sucked. Last week had to be the worst week of my college career (no joke). Not only was I so busy with relay for life but I had a math test and I made an 81. I am an "A" student in math. AN "A" STUDENT. There was no time for myself other than swimming. Not to mention that it seemed as though I didn't have anyone at all when I needed them the most. No one can relate to the situations that I am going through with my family. And I was blown off by a few people that I care about the most.

Most of my phone calls from home have been nothing but constant yelling at me about things that I have no control over. I have done more crying in the past few days than I have this entire year. Nobody understands but I am seriously dreading going home for the summer. It's bothering me more than anyone knows. Since nobody really reads this not very many of my friends know that I am really upset. I just hide it well and tell you, journal.

My mom just told me yesterday that we won't have membership to the gym until she starts working again. God only knows how long that could be. My one "getaway" from everyone and everything is swimming laps. Now that I won't have the lap pool I don't know what the hell I'm going to do.

Not to mention that I am once again broke. I need to quit being so nice and giving at times. I've spent so much money on other people and now I don't know how I'm going to do this last month without my mom paying for her part of the phone bill. My dad sure as hell isn't going to pay it and I won't make enough money to cover it.

I shouldn't be spending the money to go to the straylight run concert in a couple of weeks but it's the only thing that I'm looking forward to. I have nothing to be happy about right now and going to that show would be the one thing to satisfy me for a whole 3 hours or so. I really doubt that anyone would buy me the ticket. I thought that karma was going to be on my side. I give and give and my life sucks. Maybe I should give up in Karma. Maybe I should stop thinking.

Today I'm going to workout twice. I'm so tired of looking like this and I'm so tired of thinking about everything that's wrong in my life. I've taught myself to reflect my emotions in my working out habits and not just in cleaning. By the end of the summer I am going to be one hot bitch. I need to get some homework done. First, I need lunch. I hope that you're at least doing well.

Sunday, April 10, 2005

DO THIS...

1. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
2. I will then tell you what song or BAND reminds me of you.
3. Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
4. Last, I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. Put this in your journal

Saturday, April 09, 2005

OH MAN

for the last few minutes I just sat down thinking about the different ways that you can slice a tomato and what they will look like when you cut them at a certain angle and whatnot.

*shrugs*
Whatever.

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

FUCK!

wontipots: Yo, bad news. I didn't realize that Relay for Life is on friday, i thought it was on saturday. I'm gonna be in dallas with ryan and jonathan on friday and a good bit of saturday....we were gonna come back saturday evening to make it to the relay. I haven't been able to get out and raise money this week anyways, I'm crazy busy...I'm working on two of my final recording projects, and i'm doing some crazy sax stuff cause this is my last semester and i have to play in front of the woodwind staff.......i feel really shitty, and if it cost you anything to enter me, i will repay you, and i will pay you for dinner the other night. I really apologize for this.

Auto response from LifeLikeLiz: Time is the enemy.

So of course I'm pissed off now. Wouldn't you be? I have been busting my ass for Relay for Life and all I want is to have a good turn out with my team and the fundraising for donations. So far I have had three team members who have told me that they are not going to put forth the effort to fundraise and I have had one that hasn't gotten very far either. I won't mention names though.

To top it off I have two team members that have bailed on me. At least one of them is making a tremendous effort to fundraise with me (which I greatly appreciate). The only thing that I can see is that maybe I'm a suckass team leader? That or maybe no one listened to me when I told them the importance of fundraising or what weekend it was.

So I am still hoping that my last 6 team members (which is not considered a full team) don't bail on me. The minimum amount to be a team is 8 and that -was- exactly what I had. Maybe they just don't understand how vital they are to the team. I just love how things get rationalized too.

*sighs* I guess that there's nothing else I can do about it now. All I am allowed to do is vent. So you can eat me if you are offended. I have every right to be pissed off. Too Harsh? Imagine how I feel.

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

BUSY DAY...

for a busy girl.

Yesterday Kelsea and I raised 140 dollars in change (and a few ones) by going door to door in Blanco for Relay for Life. Today I'm doing the same with Jason at Tower. Later I'm doing it at Jackson (my old dorm) with kelsea. Tomorrow I'm on-call so when I do my rounds I'll fundraise at the same time. Kill 2 birds with 1 stone.

With the way that it's looking we may raise 400 dollars and I won't settle for any less. This week Relay for Life will own me. So will Calculus. I have a test on Thursday but I'm not going to stress. Math comes easy to me with a couple of hours of study time.

Just yesterday I took a look at a picture of myself and I was really disappointed. I don't look as good as I thought I did. Kelly told me that I should quit being so hard on myself and she made a good point, "Look at how far you've come."

I have to be hard on myself though. That's just how my river flows. If I'm not hard on myself who will be? Who's going to lose this weight and rid of my diabetes? I hate struggling with this issue but I do and it bothers me so much. It seems like all I ever talk/think about is my weight and eating right.

Also I find myself looking at other people's weight issues to take focus off of mine. I need to keep myself concerned with Liz and no one else. This is where I put an end to looking down on everyone else. I hate being a condascending asshole (which I am working on). It doesn't make anyone feel better and it makes be feel like a bad person. Granted that I lost 36 pounds over the summer I am in no way satisfied and I have a long way to go.

*takes a deep breath*

On a good note, my doctor told me today that I have made a lot of improvements since the last time that I saw her. Also with the calorie scale and medicine she gave me I should have no problem losing weight in the next few months. Plus I have been kicking ass in the pool by swimming 60 laps instead of only 40. All I have to tell myself now is that I can still do it without over-doing it.

Sunday, April 03, 2005

UNEVENTFUL

Not really.

Just to give you fair warning....
this post will most likely be long.

Friday was April fool's day. I totally forgot about it and my dad got me before I could get him or anyone else at that. On my way to Houston he calls me and says "Hey there was this guy that just called up here talking to me about some scholarship he wants to give you."

This wasn't really a shock to me because my dad hears about these things and always tells me about them and their company offered me a scholarship once. So he gives me a number and tells me that the person's name is 'Ali' and that his last name is 'Phant' (pronounced 'font').

Me and my cousin Adrian had an idea that my dad would be fucking with me but I called anyway. The woman that answered said, "Thank you for calling The Texas Zoo. How can I help you?" So of course I said, "Oh sorry, wrong number." Then I hung up.

Could you imagine me falling for that shit? Calling a zoo and saying "Hello, is Ali Fant there?" Psssht. That's the oldest trick in the book. The only reason I called was because I couldn't tell what the number was to. I still laughed though. I have to give my dad some credit.

Houston was alright. I got to see Jennie and Paul and that was the whole point for going. I think I went at a bad time though. They just got a new apartment and funds are kind of tight with them so we didn't do too much.

Nathan was worthless. He didn't find anything for us to do so we just watched movies at Jennie's and untangled a blanket. It was still cool. He's a cool kid to hang out with.

Friday night Jennie got pissed off at me. She likes to make this snack where she will soak fresh cucumbers in pickle juice overnight. The only thing is that she doesn't like pickles and she needs the juice so she makes paul start a bottle and it takes him forever to eat them all.

I saw that there were three left and I decided that I wanted one. So I stuck my hand in there to grab it and Jennie freaked! It completely slipped my mind that she is a germ freak. Supposedly she can't use the juice even though my hands were clean.

I told her I would buy her a big bottle of pickles and that she just needed to chill out. So then she tells me that she had paul working on that bottle since August. I told her that we would get the big jar that I buy her and hand out all of the pickles to homeless people and keep the juice for ourselves.

Jennie and I thought it was a swell idea but Paul and Nathan said that we were going to hell. I honestly don't see anything wrong about it though. I told them, "If I was homeless and starving I'd want a fucking pickle." So, am I going to hell for my idea? I would like to take a poll on that. Just leave your answer with me in the comment box. It can be anonymous too. Just leave a good reason why. Do it.

Yesterday I bought a kick ass digital camera at the sony store in the Galleria. It certainly helped me and Adrian have an exciting ride back too. We shot a video and we took some cool pics at Bucees. Good times.

Kelsea and I have a long week of knocking on doors and rolling change ahead of us. Relay for life is still creeping and the countdown continues. I will be glad when it's over with. I love doing it but I don't think I will be a team leader again. At least not while I am so busy with other things as well.

Speaking of Relay for Life and cancer. My uncle is not in good shape. Come to find out he has testicular and lung cancer. They also found out that he might have lymphoma. *shakes her head* They removed a lot of fluid from his heart and found some in his lungs too but the severity of that isn't near as bad as the fluid in his heart.

When I found out that he was in the hospital on thursday night for his heart stopping I freaked out because I just knew that it had to be as a result of his cocaine addiction. To think that I have actually done that shit before really scares the shit out of me. I am so happy that I never got addicted to it. I don't even know if that's the real reason as to why his heart stopped but it would be -really- scary if it was.

*breathes*

I am about to go and workout with my kelly and then I have calculus homework. This post has a lot of mixed emotions but no worries. I am completely okay with everything that is going on.

If anything I am thankful. I got to see my best friend, I got to hang out with a new friend, I have a kickass digital camera, I will never do coke again, and I have a great family and friends.

Oh yeah and before I forget...HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KELSEA!